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I'm not here anymore

 

By Ochuko Tonukari

 

 

A curious feeling, an absolute lethargy has crept over me...
Don�t knock on the door, don�t ring the bell
Don�t wait for my voice, that you know so well.
For I�m taking a trip to an unknown place
It�s the first time I�ve been here in inner space.

Just cannot explain this feeling I feel
I wish I knew what was the real deal.
I�m doing the things I�ve always done
I know all will be fine in the long run.

It�s not that I�m sad, or even depressed
It�s not that I�m acting like one possessed.
It�s not that I�m mad, or even confused
And no, this is not keeping me amused.

Floating like a cloud riding on the wind
I�m feeling completely spaced out within.
Just watching Life go meandering by
I want to lie down and just look at the sky.

I don�t want to speak, I don�t want to write
I don�t want to smile, I don�t want to fight
I don�t want to eat , I don�t want to breathe
I just want to let go, I just want to be

No strings attached, no duty calls
Breaking down all my weary walls
Just flying out to the deep blue sea
Spirit's footloose, and fancy free.

So if you ring the bell, or knock on the door
Don�t wonder, coz I�m not here anymore.
I hope I�ll touch down on Urhoboland real soon
Till then, think of me when you look at the moon.

Floating like a cloud riding on the wind
I�m feeling completely spaced out within.
Just watching Life go meandering by
I want to lie down and just look at the sky.

 




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